Shattered

My daughter wrote this and she said I could share it.

Beautiful on the outside, but shattered within. As things appear to be broken, they build as something new as time goes on. You can bring on new glory, from terrible events of the past. Life is like a puzzle, finding one piece at a time. Building up the courage, admitting this life is mine. I’m not alone, as my mind seems so distant. I have to bring that happy child back.

I dedicate this poem to my sister Amber, I miss her dearly, for these times I need her. I know she is with me, but not in form. Just like the painting, not all is there. The pieces that broke, will repair. With my guardian Angel by my side, my life, my goals, my achievements, can not, will not, become deprived.

Amber – One Year

It has been one year since we lost her. One year full of tears. One year of missed talks and time together.

I think about Amber every day. I always have a very special relationship and loved spending time with her so much. We would have very deep talks about so many subjects. She would teach me about her feelings and I would share mine. Amber was more than a niece or Goddaughter to me. Amber was part of me.

Amber was loved by so many people. She was a big part of so many lives. Seeing her brought a smile to my face even when times where tough.

Today, as I think about Amber and the deep love I and so many others have for her. I just want to see her again, but that is not possible.

Now, we try to remember the good times and the joy that she brought to our lives. She was a beautiful person inside and out. I think of the free soul that Amber was. I think of the song “Dancing in the Sky“. I believe that she is dancing in the sky now, she is dancing in the clouds and with all of the loved ones that have passed.

I was love to take pictures and videos. This video is from Amber’s 23rd birthday, taking her to eat and be sung to. I have many videos but just haven’t been ready to go through them yet…

I will.. She is always in OUR HEARTS!

In her short life she touched so many people and made so many connections. Connections and building relationships is what life is about.

13321947_881624948648025_6144795738528172072_ni woke up today thinking 1 yr today my daughter left my appt. to go somewhere .i wanted her to go for wings with me that night .She decided to go get well from her addiction .She left saying i love you mommy .and i had a smile on my face not knowing they were here last words . I am going today stay strong and remember good times .i want amber to look down at me and say I’m proud of ya mommy she will always be in my heart (6/1/2016):

 

12400687_10206173400313845_5370386953871072394_nFrom Mom F(6/1/2016) :
I remember that last week. Amber was struggling and really wanted to get it!!! I am blessed to have had so may years and time with Amber. I am even more glad and blessed to have seen Amber and her mon reunite so closely the last 4 months. What a blessing God gave us all time with Amber . I love you Janine. Your post just brought me to tears. Pap Pap Bob is also feeling such a big hole in his heart. Amber always respected her Pap and looked up to him. Her uncle Lou , Rhonda and the girls were like mentors too. They stepped in when the going got tough for Grandma (Nana) Thanks Lou Jr. for all the help. Also Thanks to Pap Pap Rainaldi . & Grandma Cathy When Amber was very young he took her to give (Nana) a break. Oh how I appreciated the help. We had such a beautiful and loving relationship with Our Amber, I am sure Amber is looking down and saying. Wow!!! I’m at peace. Also thanks to all her close relationships Amber had. She love everyone. May you all find peace.
Also Amber’s dad did the best he could. And Grandma Jan and pop pop. Always tried to help. Thanks  (6/1/2016)

 

13332798_10208137654497638_386180493503331093_nAmber – My Child, Grandchild – It has been a year since your earthly journey ended. There is seldom a day that I don’t have a thought about you or find something that reminds me of you. Some of those little projects you made while growing up are still on or in my work bench along with several pictures from different ages. I often see signs that remind me of you like the bright pink feather that appeared out of nowhere when I was tearing the old kitchen apart. It seems at times that you are watching over me now. I have a lot of good memories of you from an infant through a young adult that I will hold onto forever. I thank God for giving you to me as a child, trusting me to help you grow, and letting me have those years with you. You will forever be a part of me. Amber – I love and miss you. (6/1/2016)

 

21211371599_3848cd8079_zone year ago today God decided He wanted more laughter & dancing in heaven. He took my granddaughter Amber Mersing into His kingdom, we only had her for 24 years but she put so much joy & happiness into my life. i think of her every day thankful for all the joy she brought into my life. i miss her every day & wish i had her back. i miss you & you will always be with me. until we meet again love you pappy (6/2/2016)

I ask you all, please remember that tomorrow is not guaranteed. Remember to tell people you love them and more importantly SHOW them your love.

Rest In Peace Amber. Jan 2 1991 – June 4, 2015

Amber … We Love You

18700358348_e179a4a757_oMy family is still in shock and can’t believe that we will not be able to see Amber again in this world. I know I just want to hear her again.. “Uncle Lou”, those words filled my heart with joy. We always said I Love You have each time we talked and hugged.

 

Below is the eulogy that was given by one of Amber’s Grandfather’s. Beautiful spoken and written.

 

 

 

Amber

Reading For Amber (Gia)

Below, is what my Gianna wrote and then stood and delivered to everyone at Amber’s service last Sunday. Savannah stood up at the podium to read a scripture with her Aunt Nina (Amber’s Mom). I am so proud of all of them.

Hello,

Amber was like a sister to me. We had so much fun together with gymnastics competitions to dancing. I lover her so much. I loved how we were close cousins. And I will always remember all the fun we had. I am gonna miss her alot. And for everyone in this room to remember that she is looking down at us. One more thing in heave she is with Blaze who she would dress up with him and get a picture taken.